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'I am fused just in case I blow out'
The thing is that, despite paranoia, uncertainty & unawareness, I believe myself capable of enduring some things which could devastate this re-encountered soul. Obviously enough, what I attempt making clear here might be full of bare predictions since there is no actual way I can precisely tell how I will react. Nevertheless, the recently acquired acknowledgement of how things can go on gives some clue.
My previous experience won't necessarily match what is about to come, but I could be smart enough to once more remain alive. Someone told me once I have already blown out twice. My unawareness leaves doubt although I trust such person.